An honest divorce book, written while it was happening

Nobody Tells You
This About Divorce

Not a success story written years after it was over. An honest, practical account written during the divorce, by a man going through the same thing you are.

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A book by Liudvikas Benediktas

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Liudvikas Benediktas

Why this book

Most divorce books are written by people who got through it years ago. They look back from a safe distance and hand you a tidy list of lessons. That is not much use at two in the morning, when you are still in the middle of it and have to decide what to do tomorrow.

What helps more is someone going through it at the same time as you, telling you plainly: this is what actually worked, this is what only looked like help, this is the thing worth holding on to. This book was written during the divorce, in real time, not remembered years later.

It will not tell you to love yourself as if that were a switch you forgot to flip. It will not hand you a gratitude journal. It is for the man who still has to answer the lawyer's email today, walk his children to a door that is no longer his, and decide, alone, what happens next — before he feels ready, because the feeling is not coming and the deciding cannot wait.

The divorce was only the event. The thing that happened was that a man died.

From the introduction

The book

A death and a birth

Protagonist → Operator

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  1. 00IntroductionAn honest account, written during the divorce.Read →
  2. 01The CollapseWhen a man understands the old life is over.Read →
  3. 02The Empty RoomWho am I, when I am no longer a man in a relationship?Read →
  4. 03A Place in Their LifeFatherhood measured in actions, not in a calendar.Read →
  5. 04The Inner EnemyFear, attachment, and the need to be approved of.Read →
  6. 05Death of the ProtagonistLetting the performed self die. The conceptual center.Read →
  7. 06Birth of the OperatorDiscipline. Money. The body. A system for deciding.Read →
  8. 07The New LifeNot a return to the old self. A new man, built.Read →
  9. ＋The Field KitWhat to do with money, the law, your body, your children — in the first ninety days.Read →

The Field Kit

An instruction, not a feeling

The interior parts of this book are for the two-in-the-morning silence. The Field Kit is for Monday morning. It is the part you can tear out and use: plain, practical, ordered — because I remember exactly how it felt to need an instruction and be handed a feeling instead.

  • Communication
  • The legal process
  • Money
  • The body
  • Inner work
  • Children
  • Rebuilding
  • The first 90 days

The author

Liudvikas Benediktas

Written during his own divorce, not after it

He did not wait until it was over to write this. He wrote it during the divorce, in real time, because the book he needed most did not exist: not the story of a man who had already recovered, but an honest account from a man still in the middle of it.

He is not a therapist and not a guru. He is a man who, somewhere in the worst year of his life, stopped being a victim of it and started being an operator inside it — and wrote down how, so that you would not have to learn it the same way.

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